Saturday 24 September 2011

No 15 Irinotecan - No 12 Avastin

I had my next lot of treatments yesterday afternoon at Weston Park Hospital...The team there were wonderful, it only took two gos to get the cannula in and then off we went.

My plan for this month as with every month is to eradicate if not completely wipe out the cancer.  I have been praying hard as I know those out there that have a spare prayer are doing so also. In order for the medical team to move onto the next stage there needs to be a marked reduction in the tumour.

There is not an option to operate I have been told, in any of the areas, however SIRT is still an option on my liver. Also there is the option of a miracle cure if he sees it fit that there is more for me to achieve on this world.

I feel pretty good and although I went for a spin today shall now be resting up easy for the next few days.

Although I feel okay I feel somewhat guilty expecting others to pray for me when there is so much and so many needing prayer in this world....However I so want to live and when I hear that there is not a lot the medical world can do that is when I get frightened that I will die from this terrible disease.

It has been going for so long - Dec 24th 2009 it was confirmed, Oct 2010 it was rediscovered in my Para-aortic lymph nodes, in my pelvic lymph nodes and with a tumour in my liver. My tumour in my liver reduced to 2.1cm and my other areas  remained the same, At my last scan all remained stable with the next scan coming up in a couple of months, I am aiming for complete cure and a miracle.

I am in gods hands and thankful to him for my journey so far - our relationship has been fraught at times but I am aware he still is with me.

Much Love

Tony xxx

4 comments:

  1. Although we have never met, we are family, and your tribulations are never far from us. Your New Zealand family are praying for you.

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  2. Glad 'He' is still with you, but please know that 'I' am also with you and will ALWAYS be with you Tony.
    Much love to you bonny lad, and hoping we can meet up soon x

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  3. Hi Tony, I'm praying so hard for you right now, just want you to know that,
    Take care, Lynn x

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  4. Hi Tony,
    I don't think you need to feel guilty about people praying for you - they pray for you because they want to, not because you expect it. Prayers from the heart by people who love you, whether they've met you or not, are their way of helping...no need for any guilt on your part in my opinion.

    I don't pray Tony but if I did you'd be someone I immediately would pray for - instead I'll just let you know that, like Shents, I'm always here for you and you are never far from my thoughts - every single day.
    Much luv xxxx

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