Don't borrow trouble until trouble comes!

The above saying is one that I use quite a lot on the cancer research website - basically means why waste time worrying until you know all the facts!

Like I said a saying I use a lot to advise others but one that I am finding particularly difficult to heed my own advice...

I had a call this afternoon from my surgeons secretary...she noted that there was a chance of me having my colostomy reversed and I had to correct her that it had already been reversed...After a few moments and shuffling of paper, I was advised that I would gain the results of my bowel biopsy and the suggested plan of action at an appointment that I already have planned with my palliative care team at 16:00 tomorrow. I was further advised that Mr S wanted me to know that if I took the surgery option????? there was an appointment booked in my name for a surgery pre-assessment this Thursday.

If I take the surgery option (for whatever reason) this means a stop on chemo so I have some serious thinking to do when I know what I am up against. I understand that I will get the full facts tomorrow and I still have faith in my care teams however I do wish I hadn't had that phone call as my head is most certainly borrowing trouble!!

Much Love

T x