Just looked at Wendy's comment - my strong belief in God had me in a bit of a turmoil as to what to do. I had previously accepted God's will and taken great comfort from it, however whilst my belief stood strong I started to question God in my Prayers and was concerned that this would anger the man upstairs!
God has the power to:
1) Cure me immediately of the Cancer and take away my pain, you see it happening as a miracle cure.
2) Cure me over time, putting me through the necessary trials and assisting the doctors to make the right and timely diagnosis/decisions
3) Have the Cancer end my life
There appears to be a 4th option that I can wrestle with God. I will be up front and respect his decision for 1) and 2) but WILL NOT accept 3) as an option, I have so much more to do on His Earth and in His name.
Sorry to those that are not believers and if you think I have freaked out and being over dramatic then maybe I have and maybe I am, Cancer does that to you!
I think a few days silence will assist me :-)
Hospital appointment on Thursday to check stuff prior to next week, also popped up to see Karen & Langy two of my friends from Church On The Bus. They live in a bus in Matlock and have nearly run out of water and logs so we are going to get that sorted tomorrow. I did suggest they thaw some of the tons of snow around but that upsets the dogs tummy, maybe that bit too cold!
Amen
Keep strong in your faith and beliefs buddy.
ReplyDeleteAnd yes snow does not really go down to well with dogs :-)